2014…a year of adventure, battle and overcoming. I knew it would be a year to be reckoned with but as with most things it is often just as well that we don’t truly understand the degree to which we will be challenged.
So 2014 lies behind me but the lessons learned and all that I have overcome will ever be with me. So I can honestly look back with no regret. There are moments I would have preferred had run a different course had they been in my control but such is the beauty of life – it will run its course. The moments ventured through that are less than comfortable are often the one’s that result in shift.
Change is painful. Telling yourself it’s not, more than likely adds up to being in a deep space of denial. No matter how prepared you think you are to face it head on, it has this devious way of getting into all the nooks and crannies and seeping through like a most unwelcomed friend.
Imagine a little fishing boat – freshly painted and bobbing about on the river.
Most of the boat is reasonably well sealed except for one tiny little hole just below the water line. Only a few millimetres trickle through at a time but it’s just enough to keep your feet damp and make sure you are horribly aware of its presence.
Change, also brings relief – it is both perplexing and profound.
Essentially it can tip the boat or slowly sink it or it can rage you through the rapids. All of which lead to the age of feeling of: Can I do this? Have I got what it takes? What if I fail?
Asked and answered…
Well what if you can’t do it?
What if you don’t have what it takes?
What if you do fail?
Does it really matter?
Is it the end result that matters or is it the moments in between?
I believe it is the moments in between that are what validates and certifies us on this journey. It is not the fluffy moment of success at the top of a mountainous trail. It is the full enchilada – getting down counts just as much and going up.
You may not have even made it all the way up but on the way you traversed boulders, skated glaciers, dodged avalanches and found your way out of a rock slide.
The summit – if you get there – is just a moment.
After you summit, if you do, you have to expertly find your way down and that comes with its own unique road map. How you navigate that one is of utmost value – it determines whether you get down in one piece or not.
Turning around half way due to severe blisters, altitude sickness or a snag in the weather would result in your trip being branded as an ineffectual attempt at mountain climbing.
You may never give it a shot again. Others might tell you to give it up or find another mountain that is more elementary and matched to your paltry ability.
So it’s filed as an ‘almost but not quite’ mountainous failure.
What am I getting at?
Whilst the summit is desirable and what we as human beings work so hard to secure, it is in fact the journey taken up that mountain that should be esteemed above the summit. Every one of these arduous obstacles and challenges we face is what make us more reputable climbers.
Every one of these set-backs bring about some kind of change in our plans – they force us to think beyond the expected, to adjust our course and to develop new skills.
Every one of these predicaments impels us to re-evaluate behaviour, responses and to look deeper into who and what we believe we are.
An easy accent…
An easy accent would result in a less than victorious outcome. Never having a moment’s doubt about who you are or why on earth you picked this mountain to climb would be the failure.
When we question our actions and who we believe we are, what we are capable of and why we picked the selected precipice (and we question not to simply fall into despair and reckless self-doubt) we start to find the answers; we could also start to make the changes so necessary to enable our growth.
It’s called overcoming.
It’s called an arduous climb, of overcoming obstacles and challenges, discomfort and even pain.
It’s called becoming.
Growing into a stronger, wiser, braver mountaineer.
Seeing the mountain as not something to be conquered, but the climb as something to be remembered. The decent as a time of reflection.
The summit becomes a fringe benefit when you have this outlook on your life.
Self-doubt is par for the course.
It is how you look at yourself.
How you manage the judgement of others, their perspective of you.
Self-doubt doesn’t need to last – it really is your choice. You either take it on or you let it go.
Change and challenge is going to stay part of our lives – there is no way around it. It has to be faced head on – that’s how you grow, that’s how you learn.
It is simply how you learn to love yourself and the life you have lived up until now.
Every step has counted towards something – make it work. Make every crappy thing count.
Romans 5:3 – 5
But not only that, let us also boast in our troubles; because we know that trouble produces endurance, endurance produces character, and character produces hope; and this hope does not let us down, because God’s love for us has already been poured out in our hearts through the Ruach HaKodesh (Holy Spirit) who has been given to us.