This has been my favourite question for many years now and particularly this year. When we made the decision to move into what God had for us we really thought things would happen quickly. We had many confirmations that we were on the right path and so we packed up all our belongings, gave some of it away and lived in a temporary space. Well over a 3 years later I can tell the foremost question on our mind is why is it taking so long???
I am not sure that I have all the answers but I do now have a few after some reflection on time in pending. I can see now that when we thought we were ready, we were in actual fact not.
- We did not have the insight and understanding we have today – it took a few more years to grow that and when do we in actual fact stop growing…um…never
- We did not have the faith we have today and I know that by tomorrow it would have grown a millimetre or two again – would our faith have been sufficient if the doors had opened 2 year ago? Perhaps, but I do think emotionally we would have taken a greater degree of strain than we will when we do eventually leave.
- We were not emotionally anywhere near geared up to take the steps we will need to – we have been through some serious trials and tribulations this year, and I will get to sharing that in the near future, but it has truly refined us and shifted our thinking. I have such a different outlook on what I need and what is really important to us as a family now.
God needed to show us what it is like to wait and to struggle – because in all of that we have developed perseverance and this has most certainly produced character.
Am I the same person I was 3 years ago or for that matter 1 year ago – not at all.
Do I have any regrets? – NO – the only thing I could have done differently was stand stronger and eliminated all my negative thinking. It would have saved me so many heartaches and pity parties. I do know that God says our times are in His hands. I also know as painful as the process is that He is never too early or late – He is always on time and I have to trust that.
Waiting is part of building, we know that, but in a world where everything is so immediately gratifying it can become tough. It is in those tough moments that we have to hang onto the truth and not to our emotions.
You know the truth – you know the promise – so a little waiting has to happen – dare I say patience is a fruit of the Spirit?
So grow some – make the most of this time and allow it to grow you _ I am so looking forward to the day when that fruit is ripe and ready to be used.
Hang in there – your time is in God’s hands. – Michelle